Zeenat’s story is one of courage and faith. Zeenat displays so well for each of us what it means to have faith in the larger force that governs all life, what it means to have inspiration from all that is, and what it means to be of service to all. Her story is moving, and very inspiring to know that we can always get through anything. We can always let go of any pain and hardships. The choice is always ours and Zeenat displays that so well through her life experience.
My journey of awakening and personal expansion
We are all the sum total of our experiences. And, I am no different. Having gone through a lot of pain and heartache very early on in life made me lose my childhood pretty soon. I had become so muddled in the problems that surrounded while I was a teenager that other that being forced to grow up, I had also completely lost sight of life itself.
It was only after many years of being in this state of pain and self denial, that one event made me stand up and say “Enough is enough!” It took me nearly 10 years to realize what I was doing to myself and my gift of life. Faith in The Almighty became my safe haven. I would pray till the wee hours of the night for guidance and strength. It was in these nightly prayers that I decided to give my life a full 360 turn.
I opened up to the possibilities and the beauty of life itself. I remember, to commemorate this occasion, I enrolled in college again(which I had left incomplete earlier due to a bad first marriage). I probed my inner self for answers of my purpose and passions, and The Almighty so graciously and lovingly handed them to me.
Changing or evolving wasnt entirely in my hands…God helped immensely. For me Faith got me to where I am today. Faith gave me strength and courage, and God provided me with the little wisdom I needed to make the 360 turn.
Before keeping the faith- true faith, all I was doing was being ritualistic. Just letting go and living with and in harmony with the universe, is what faith is all about for me. It helped me open up and take my life by the reigns. All I can say is I am Blessed to be where I am.
My Inspirations and Influences
I seriously had or have no strategy. Inspiration comes to me from every little thing that I come across.
My only measuring scale for my internal change is what I feel in my heart and what stirs my soul. If it touches my heart and soul, it inspires me. Be it a little smile from a passerby or a sad face in the crowd, or a lost soul in turmoil, or a few words. Anything and everything inspires me to be better. Better than I was yesterday. I don’t want God to think he gave me so many blessings and I am not making good use of them.
My helping nature (hubby calls me a softie icecream), is a boon of sorts. It keeps me open to learn more from every little experience. And since I have myself gone through such hard times very early on in life, it has conditioned me to instantly put myself in another’s shoes and feel exactly how they are feeling. This makes it easier for me to understand them, understand me and understand the Universal Plan.
As for books – reading has always been my passion.When I was a kid, my dad used to bring Readers Digest books for me and would ask me to solve those word-meaning pages. I initially hated doing them, but in time grew to love it. I don’t really read a lot of fiction. I prefer the self-improvement or the educational type of books.
I know two particular books were like my life line for inspiration when I was going through a rough patch in my life:
The Magic of Thinking Big by David Schwartz
As for people who inspire me – Mother Teresa and Gandhi top that list. But like I mentioned before, inspiration for me comes from the smallest of gestures. One word can have a ripple effect in my head and lead to big things. For example my blog…I thought of “helping” and instantly the ripple effect created Positive Provocations.
Would you believe it if I told you that I didn’t know what on earth a blog was till I actually started mine! Who knew because of this blog I would meet beautiful souls like you, help so many people around the world and discover my love for writing?
Amazing how this ripple effect works!
My Positive Life Changes
Happiness to me isn’t in my achievements or in my attainment of certain things. My goals and aspirations are not my thermometer for attaining happiness.To me the smallest thing like a smile can bring me immense joy.
I had always been a fun happy-go-lucky girl when I was younger. Somehow I lost all that innocence and happiness while in my teenage years because of all the problems going on in my life at that time. It was only after I was able to pull myself out of one such situation, did I realise how strong and capable I was.
Up to that point I had taken on the role of the protector, I was never the protected. The empowerment and sudden sense of self made me happy. It was a feeling like no other…all I could compare that feeling with was my family pillow fights over the weekend (when I was about 9 or 10 yrs old) with dad, mum, my brothers and me running around the whole house throwing pillows at each other, ruining many pillows but gaining and experiencing so much pure joy and happiness.
It was at this point in time (21 years old), when I was for the first time able to think for myself, no pressures. I completed my Masters and immersed myself in finding ME.
Since then I have never looked back. Happiness is in me right now! It was always there…I just didn’t notice it earlier with all the turmoil around me.
It is not that life doesn’t throw me curve-balls anymore… but I have now understood that my joy comes from a deeper place. Those external curve-balls cannot deter how I feel nor do they have the power to make me unhappy. If I am happy I am. Growing with this understanding has helped me immensely in doing my work and responding to the needs of my soul. Before I was just a person living life, now I am ALIVE! Truly uninhibitedly Alive.
My Next Steps as an Evolving Being
I intend to keep working on me and everything and everyone around me at the heart and soul level.
With everyday bringing forth a new understanding of this universe and its amazing plans, there is still so much to do. So much more helping and healing. There is still a world out there who needs support who needs help and above all who needs healing.
I know I don’t have the power to help everyone, but I can certainly try. One person at a time. I believe firmly that One person healed is like healing everyone around them and the ripple effect comes into play. Maybe one day there will be no hatred, no malice, no anger, no turmoil…I work and pray for that day.
That is why, while I celebrate the 1st birthday of my blog this month – April 2010, I am also reevaluating my approach. I intend to write more articles and publish some more e-books which will truly benefit, help and heal.
My first ever e-book will be out this month for a free download on the blog too! In writing I not only help the reader understand and heal, but it is my way of understanding and healing too.
My Advice to Others
Each human being is born as someone new, someone that never existed before. Each is born with the capacity to make success of his or her life. Each person has a unique way of seeing, hearing, touching, tasting and thinking.
Each has his/her own unique potentials, capabilities and limitations. Each and every one of us can be a significant, thinking, aware and creative being – a productive person having the will and the ability of finding fulfillment, joy and happiness for himself/herself.
Don’t let your limitations rule your life, rather make your uniqueness your true potential. Don’t be afraid to be different. It’s what makes you YOU!
There are times when life can get me down too…it is in these times I have found solace in re-reading these quotes:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
Follow Your Bliss. If you do follow your bliss, you put yourself on a kind of track that has been there all the while waiting for you, and the life you ought to be living is the one you are living. When you can see that, you begin to meet people who are in the field of your bliss, and they open the doors to you. I say, follow your bliss and don’t be afraid… and doors will open where you didn’t know they were going to be. If you follow your bliss, doors will open for you that wouldn’t have opened for anyone else.